Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
Despite feeling a little crummy, Christmas was still very nice. My mother (a/k/a "Nana") came to visit Trevor and me. We had Christmas dinner at a local hotel---very relaxing and quite tasty! On Christmas night we drove through a nearby subdivision to admire all the beautiful Christmas light displays. It was a nice, relaxing Christmas. We can't wait to experience Christmas 2009 with Zoe!
As for gifts, Trevor hooked me up. He went to Jared's! Trevor made out like a bandit, too. I think the gift he appreciated most was from Zoe--a daddy diaper changing tool belt. Zoe wanted to be sure Daddy's adequated prepared for those first few diaper changes. LOL.
Now it's time to nurse this cold....
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Weight gain is still good. Up 12.4 lbs. from my pre-preggers weight. According to the books, I should be having Braxton Hicks contractions by now. I'm not, or at least I don't notice them. I hope I don't jinx myself.
Zoe this week: she now has toenails, fingernails and hair! If my acid reflux is any indicator, and if the old wives tale is true, Zoe has a lot of hair! Zoe's skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth. Our baby girl is (hopefully) settling into a head-down, bottom-up position in preparation for birth. Zoe is still getting a lot of rest these days; reportedly having sleep cycles of 20-40 minutes long. I hope her sleep cycles are much longer once she's here. :- )
Zoe is approximately 17 inches long and weighs a little over 4 pounds (about the weight of a large jicama (so good in salads---not that I'm eating many these days)):
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Trevor sent me a sweet text this morning that made me cry. It said "Happy Bday! U get better with time. I love u very much and can't wait for Zoe to meet you. She is truly blessed to have u as a mommy." Awww.....
I can't wait to spend next December 23 as my "first" birthday as a mother! It will be so special!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Then, tonight I was driving home from work and my neck was itching. I made an interesting discovery when I scratched it. Um, yeah, why did I put my sweater on backwards this morning and not notice ALL day! LOL. I thought something looked funny about the shape of my sweater and the turtleneck today. That explains it.
Can I get any goofier?! The sad thing is I know the answer to this question. Scary!
I told Dr. S that I'm feeling a little overwhelmed after the infant care and breast feeding classes. She agreed that it can seem very daunting when one thinks of ALL the things that go into it, but she encouraged me to take it one moment and one day at a time. She told me her own funny story of taking 20 minutes to change her daughter's diaper the first time. Despite all of her years of delivering babies and caring for expectant and new moms, she had her own struggles. Even after 20 minutes of trembling as she changed the diaper she said it still fell off. LOL. She was just so reassuring and put my mind at ease. With respect to breast feeding, she just told me to stay mentally and emotionally committed to it. I'm feeling a lot better today. I'm just going to keep reminding myself to take it one moment/one feeding at a time. I know I can do this. I will do this. I was just a little overwhelmed. I'm glad Dr. S allowed me to talk through it with her.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Sunday's classes were much fuller and involved infant care and breastfeeding. These courses overwhelmed me. There is SOOOO much to consider when caring for an infant. Who knew?! I took so many notes; I hope I can remember it all. Breastfeeding seems like a daunting endeavor, but I'm fully committed to giving it my best shot. I hope I'll have great success. I think the toughest part of all of this will be the days I have to go it alone due to Trevor's piloting schedule, but I know it will all work out.
I hope we can figure all of this out. I know we will. I just hope it doesn't take us too long.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I don't want Zoe to address adults, even family friends, by first name only; however, I'm okay with her addressing family friends as "Mr. or Mrs. [first name]
At the end of the day, I completely support my husband and we will teach Zoe to address "John" as "Mr. Moss". It's not a big deal. This discussion just illustrates to me how much our individual experiences bleed into our own parenting philosophy. The funny things you never think of.....
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Michelle, Me and Sharri (getting pedis):
The Food Table (yum!):
The Cake (red velvet, of course):
Michelle, Me and Sharri:
Mom, Me and Misty (my newest sister-in-law...she won my baby brother's heart):
Trevor, Mom, Mama D (my mother-in-law) and Me: (after the shower):
Ms. Mable (my "second mom") and Me:
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Zoe this week: lots to report. A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds her, but that volume will decrease as she gets bigger and takes up more room in my uterus. Her eyesight continues to develop, though it's not very keen; even after she's born, she'll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she'll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.) Zoe's brain is taking on characteristic grooves and indentations. In addition, her bone marrow has taken over production of red blood cells (before, tissue groups and then the spleen took care of producing the blood cells). This is an important step for Zoe, because it means she is better able to thrive on her own once born. Much of the lanugo — the soft, downy hair covering Zoe's body — is beginning to disappear now because both fat and the brain are regulating her body temperature.
Zoe is still moving a lot. The last several nights she's been making moves that feel like something out of "The Matrix." I wish I could see inside my stomach to see what she's doing. It's funny.
Zoe is about 15.7 inches long now, and she weighs just over 3 pounds (as much as a head of cabbage):
Sunday, December 7, 2008
While I can joke about this now, I must confess that I was a bit down about it on Saturday. Trevor and I talked about it Saturday morning and he asked why I was letting it get to me. He wondered if I was worried about what others would think. I started to explain that I just want the room to be perfect for Zoe. Although I know she won't "notice" the room for awhile, I want her to love the room once she's aware of it. And then I cried. Dang pregnancy hormones! It's only paint for crying out loud! (No pun intended....)
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Due to the lack of clearance between the base of my tongue and my throat, my air passage becomes obstructed when my soft pallet relaxes. This is more than I ever wanted to know about my mouth, tongue and air passage. Using a mouth guard will help to bring my tongue forward and clear my air passage; however, prolonged use of the mouth guard can cause me to develop an under bite, so I'm not crazy about that. We'll see. I think I'll wait until Zoe is born and see if things improve.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
I can't believe it's come to this. After all of our years together, we must part. At first I was in denial, but after nearly a week without you (last night was the worst!), I've come to terms with the inevitable. I'm not sure who's to blame for what has happened between us. Perhaps you're to blame for not trying harder to meet my needs. Or maybe it is I who betrayed you when I crossed into my third trimester of pregnancy. But I guess it doesn't really matter now, does it? There's nothing to be gained from assessing blame. We just have to accept what has happened between us and move on. Perhaps we'll meet again after Zoe is born, but probably not immediately. Maybe we'll reconcile when she's 3 months old, or 5 months old, perhaps when she's 1 year old. I just don't know???? Let's not put a time limit on it, okay? All I can say is that I REALLY hope our paths cross again. Please know that I really do love you, and I miss you already! In fact, I'm sure I'll miss you more than you'll miss me. Perhaps we can meet up from time to time. I'll leave that up to you.
Ta-ta for now. Until we meet again, my friend.....
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Dinner was okay. We went to the Four Seasons Resort. The ambiance was great, but the food was just so-so. (But the dessert was amazing!) Definitely not worth the money. But hey, it was low maintenance for us (no maintenance, in fact), and it was still enjoyable.
We're already looking forward to Thanksgiving 2009 with Zoe. It'll be so much fun!
Your Word instructs me, in 1 Thessalonians 5:18, "to give thanks in all things, for this is God's will for [me] in Christ Jesus." At this time of Thanksgiving, I thank you for all of the many blessings in my life. First and foremost, for Your Son, Jesus Christ, my savior. Thank You for blessing me, Trevor and our families with life and health. I thank You for the many special friends You've blessed us with. Thank You for the amazing church You led us to and for a rich teaching of Your word on a weekly basis. Thank You for blessing Trevor and I with wonderful jobs and careers, for a beautiful home, and for blessing us to be a blessing to others. I thank You that despite the craziness going on around us and in this economy, You are our source, protector, sun and shield.
Thank You for blessing me with an amazing husband who loves me as You've instructed....as Christ loves the church. I thank You for Trevor's gentle spirit, his faithful love, and his heart for You.
Thank You, Lord, for the men and women who are defending our country domestically and abroad. Keep them safe from all hurt, harm and danger, and bless them and their families for their sacrifice.
Last, but certainly not least, thank You so very much for the wonderful gift of life growing inside of me. In fact, her very name, Zoe, means "life". Thank You for blessing her to grow strong inside of me, and I thank You for her life and purpose.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Zoe this week: our baby girl is still squirming around like crazy! And I still love it! While Trevor still hasn't "felt" her move, he did see my stomach jump today. It was pretty exciting! Zoe's new skill this week...blinking! And she's even getting REM sleep these days. (Too bad mommy isn't!) It is even believed that babies in utero start dreaming at this stage. I wonder what our little angel is dreaming about?! I hope all of her good dreams come true!
Zoe weighs approximately 2.5 lbs. this week and she's almost 16 inches long. Zoe weighs as much as Chinese cabbage:
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Zoe's heartbeat was nice and strong ~ in the 140s. My uterus is measuring at 27 cm, which is perfect, and I've gained 1 lb. since my last appointment on November 7. All is good!
Dr. S gave us a list of recommended pediatricians, so we'll soon begin our search for Zoe's pediatrician. Dr. S also gave us the registration paperwork for the hospital we selected for Zoe's delivery. All of these things seemed like stuff we'd worry about "later." Well, "later" is here. Again, I can't believe how fast time is flying!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Lady: "Hi!!" (still beaming)
Me: "Hello." (beaming back)
Lady: "When are you due?!" (still beaming)
Me: "February. February 18." (still beaming)
Lady: "Really?!" (still beaming)
Me: "Yep!" (feeling really good; fully expecting a nice compliment)
Lady: "Wow! You look like you're ready to go any day now." (still beaming)
Me: "Really?" (in a very irritated tone as I turned away; no longer beaming)
I promptly sat down in the furthest seat from that lady and told Trevor, "that was rude. " (Fully hoping she heard me) I told Trevor that I should've asked her when she was due. (She clearly wasn't pregnant, but was a little thick around the waist)
Some people! Sheesh!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
The other thing I've started to forget.....where I put my cell phone, namely when I'm getting ready to get out of the car or getting ready to start driving. I can't tell you how many times I've tore my purse apart looking for my cell phone only to realize it's between my ear and shoulder. Yep, I'm talking on the phone while looking for the phone. Go figure????
Today took the cake. I totally and completely forgot the PIN number to my debit card. I mean totally and completely! I'm talking about standing AT the ATM machine punching in every sequence of numbers I can think of to no avail. Thankfully it was one of those machines where you swipe your card, otherwise my card would've been confiscated by the machine for suspicious activity. I still can't remember my PIN number five hours later. And I just used that card last week. Strange!
Yep, I have a severe case of pregnancy brain! LOL. The joys of pregnancy.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
I don't know why I'm making this so difficult! Actually, I do. First , because I make most decisions more difficult than necessary. Second, I'm making this difficult because in my mind I want Zoe's nursery to be perfect! But for whom? Zoe won't even know the difference! Trevor has been such a trooper. He indulges me, but I bet he's screaming on the inside. LOL.
New bedding ideas:
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I was slightly offended that the doctor kept talking about my weight throughout the appointment. He kept saying things like "with the added weight, plus your pregnancy....", "when you lose the weight after your pregnancy....", "due to your weight gain....", etc. I wanted to scream "enough with the weight already!!! Sheesh!!!" You'd think that I had to be rolled in there on a gurney or something, or hoisted up through a window. I'm not THAT big!!! To add insult to injury, Trevor was in the room. Everyone knows that you don't discuss weight with a woman - EVER - especially when her husband's in the room! Okay, so maybe there's an exception to that rule when you're a doctor, but not with my husband in the room! I now have a renewed mission to lose those law school pounds, plus any pregnancy weight I gain!
Friday, November 7, 2008
So, today I had a regular prenatal appointment with Dr. S. Trevor went with me and described my snoring to her. She's concerned that I may have pregnancy-induced sleep apnea. She's working with my primary care physician to identify a good sleep study center for me to get evaluated. I should have that information later today. If I do have sleep apnea, she's going to put me on a continuous positive airway pressure (CPAP) machine for the remainder of my pregnancy because of the risk of cutting off oxygen to Zoe. I really hope I don't have sleep apnea, but if I do, I'm glad there's a remedy for it. In the meantime, Dr. S recommended sleeping in an elevated position to open up my airway.
Until then, the snoring continues....
Today's appointment: Zoe's heartbeat was nice and strong at 162 bpm, and my uterus is measuring on target. My blood pressure was good - 118/70. With the exception of the sleep apnea concern, today's appointment was good.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Last night America experienced a defining moment in time. Even if I hadn't supported Barack Obama in this election, I'd still be so proud of America today. As an African-American, I never thought I'd see this day. What an exciting time! There is indeed "a time for everything", and it's America's time.
I pray for the safety of Barack Obama and his family. May the Lord bless you and keep you, President-Elect Obama.
2009 is going to be exciting for two reasons. First, you'll enter this world. What a wonderful day that will be! Second, you'll be born the same year that America swears in its first ever African-American President! Last night, Barack Obama earned the distinguished title of President-Elect of the United States of America! Sweetie, this is such a monumental time in American history, and you'll be born the year it all takes place. What a lucky girl you are! This country, and the opportunities facing you, will never be the same.
The reality that we'll soon have a child is setting in. Our stroller came in, as did the car seat and bases. We still need to assemble the stroller, but it's here. The crib bedding has arrived as well. Before long we'll have nursery furniture. Wow!!!
I'm feeling pretty good still. Aches and pains are the same. According to Trevor, my snoring is getting REE-DICULOUS!! How embarrassing!! I purchased a humidifier, saline nasal spray, and am hoping the snoring gets better. Trevor said that sometimes it sounds like I'm not breathing, so we're going to talk to Dr. S about the possibility of pregnancy-induced sleep apnea at our appointment on Friday. I've also been having more frequent nose bleeds, although they're only from my right nostril. Strange! I think my fatigue is returning; I'm not happy about that.
I weighed myself this morning. It seems I went through a "growth spurt", yeah that's what we'll call it, a "growth spurt." I'm now up a total of 5.4 lbs. from my pre-preggers weight. GULP! I know that's not bad, it just seems like I had a big jump in one week.
Zoe this week: she's beginning to exchange her long, lean look for some baby fat. Her wrinkled skin is beginning to smooth out. Her nostrils, which have been plugged up to this point, are starting to open up to give her practice with breathing. Additionally, her lungs are continuing to grow. Capillaries are forming under Zoe's skin and they're filling with blood. Zoe continues to be pretty active and I love it, although a few of her recent moves have been slightly uncomfortable. Oh, I felt her hiccups for the first time on Sunday. She had 11 in a row. How cute!
Zoe is approximately 14 inches long (head to heels) and she weighs just under 2 lbs. Zoe is about the size of a rutabaga (not a very cute comparison):
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
"One for every week of Zoe's life...you are a wonderful wife and mother. I love you very much! Trevor"
My eyes instantly welled up with tears. I couldn't even read the card to my secretary for fear of completely breaking down....I had to let her read it.
Aw... I love my "baby daddy" so much!!! :- ) He is so amazing!!!
Thanks, my love!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
There's no special reason for this post. I just wanted to tell you how much I love you already. I've been feeling you move a lot more lately, and I just love the feeling of your little thumps. It's almost as if you're reminding me that you're in there, but I know you're really just stretching, repositioning yourself and/or playing with the umbilical cord. ;- ) I also know that your light thumps will soon become forceful kicks and punches, but I'll do my best to enjoy those too. Even when they hurt.
I can't wait to hold you and play with you, sweetness. I daydream about your toothless grins and the little cooing sounds you'll make. I can't wait to hear you giggle for the first time. I'm even dreaming of your first cry. I can't wait to snuggle with you morning, noon and night, and I can't wait to feel your breath against my skin. I just can't wait for YOU!
Daddy and I are going to do everything in our power to be the best parents we can be. We know the Lord will grace us through it day-by-day, and He'll give us what we need to be great parents to you.
I love you, Zoe!
Anxiously anticipating your arrival,
Thursday, October 23, 2008
I lost weight over the last week. I'm now up only 4 ounces from my pre-preggers weight. That's shocking considering the amount of sweets I've been eating!
Zoe's movements are becoming more frequent and much more distinct. I love to feel her move. This morning I was resting my hand on my tummy, and I swear I felt two thumps against my hand. I was going to have Trevor feel them too, but I had to pee so bad that I couldn't lay there and relish in the moment. We'll see how the next few days go. I can't wait for him to feel his daughter move!
Zoe this week: apparently Zoe is developing her sense of movement and can feel my movements pretty well. She is also developing a keen sense of sound. We bought a book to read to her in utero called "Oh, Baby, the Places You'll Go". Trevor read it to her Sunday night and will continue to do so on a regular basis. Zoe's skin is reddish in color because of developing blood vessels, plus her skin is still pretty thin. Her skin is loose and saggy because skin develops faster than fat during fetal growth. I wonder why that has to change later in life??? LOL. (not that walking around with sagging skin would be very cute!)
Zoe is still approximately 11 inches long (head to heel) and weighs a little over 1 lb. She's about the size of a large mango:
Here's my big reveal. We finally took a pic of my belly bump on Sunday. This pic was taken at 22 weeks, 5 days. I'm certainly not the size of a large mango, but I'm definitely all baby!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
They say the first step in overcoming an addiction is to admit you have a problem. So here it is. I'm admitting it. I'm addicted to sugar. Lord, please help me!!!!