It Was You!

Dear Zoe,

Mommy was looking at you a few days ago and it hit me that it was you Mommy was carrying in her tummy all those precious months of my pregnancy. You were the sweet baby growing inside of me. As silly as it may sound, this reality caused me to pause and reflect back on the special time we shared together when it was just you and me.

I thought back to the day I found out I was pregnant, and I now realize that the tiny embryo starting to form within me was you. From that day forward, I would lay my hands on my stomach and pray for the precious life growing inside of me. I now know that the baby I prayed for so fervently was you.

I also recalled the day I told Daddy he was going to be a father. I told him in the form of a riddle. I now know that the baby I was describing in that riddle was you.

Then I thought about the first ultrasound we had. It was you we saw on that screen. And then it was you being silly and jumping around when we had our second ultrasound. (The funny thing is you jump around the same way in our laps when we hold you)

Daddy and I quickly decided we wanted to find out if the baby growing inside of me was a boy or a girl. And so we found out we were having a precious baby girl! And guess what?! It was you we saw on that screen with her legs spread eagle during the ultrasound! LOL. We immediately settled on the name "Zoe Alexis" for our baby girl. That name was picked for you, and I must say that it's quite fitting for you, princess.

I remember anxiously awaiting the first time I would feel my baby girl move. And then one day it happened. Now I know that it was you moving inside of me that day (and many days after). While I no longer feel you moving inside of me, you move me emotionally every time I look at you or hold you.

Then there was the nursery. I wanted it to be perfect for my precious baby girl, so I obsessed over it. I spent countless hours on the internet and in stores looking for the perfect *everything* for your nursery. And I'm sure I got on Daddy's nerves, too. Now I know it was you for whom I was designing a nursery. You were worth every minute of it.

Contrary to what your Daddy might say, it was you that made me snore like a wild hog! LOL.

And on that amazing evening of February 6, 2009, thirteen hours after my water broke and after about four hours of labor that I could actually feel, my precious baby girl was born. When the nurse put my baby in my arms, and I looked at her with tears in my eyes and we met face-to-face for the first time, it was you that I introduced myself to as "Mommy".

I love you, Zoe Alexis. I'm so very happy, and eternally grateful, that it was you!

Love,
Mommy